i started smoking and love it

I would go into the woods near my home, or occasionally "bravely" have one in the house if. Verywell Mind's content is for informational and educational purposes only. She light up and says "Do you like it ?". Gf had no problem doing it for me. Was also with an on again, off again gf (one of those women you just can't shake in your life), and she'd do her nails gold or sometimes white. Both my parents were heavy smokers. I am one of those people who just happens to really love smoking cigarettes. I took the post down, I just felt a bit weird about the whole thing. Did it change your personality? You're bored of the taste. She also got a really fun loving, who gives a fuck attitude. I didn't hesitate in letting her have one which, over the evening, became a couple more. I was fascinated by plants and trees as medicine for the body and soul. But my family would disown me. I was kind of freaked at first. If you like me after reading this, that is wonderful. I'm getting addicted, and I love it I've been smoking for about a month now, and three days with a new pack of Reds and they're taking their hold. I read the articles about smoking cessation at Verywell.com. I also feel warm and it's kind of veyeuristically pleasurable to be watched smoking and watching others smoke. Menthols smell and taste better to her. I enjoyed watching people smoke in old noir filmsdetectives in fedoras and glamorous actresses in sparkling. He now smokes about 7 or 8 B&Hs a day, and while he was concerned about his health at first, the more the addiction has taken a hold of him, the less he cares. I am tired of hiding and being someone I'm not. He's not worth it, no matter how much he may seem like Mr. What I mean is do you feel more like some sexy and naughty seductress whenever you smoke which is probably quite often now? But after my cigarette was stubbed out, I would want to be with them again. I was so naive that I had never heard of it. Him being gone for a few weeks where I could smoke without "risk" sounded great My son and I will be arriving in July to spend the rest of summer there and then we will all return back home. She'd quit just like that and had been for nearly 2 years much to my shagrine. For the last few years, I spent all the energy I had planning my smoking around my husband. There is nothing better than starting your day chaining a few cigarettes.. It was a nice garden next to the street where people were walking. Did your personality become more confident, more arrogant, more haughty ever since, or is it the opposite, with feelings of shame subduing your ego? In the market, there are a number of ready-to-use Electronic Cigarettes. The duty free cigarettes were gone in less than 2 weeks, so we set a date, the end of the month, which was 3 weeks away that that was when we would both quit. Hi filling our lungs as much smoke we can, Anonymous confessions, stories and advice. I don't either, really, but still get guilt feelings (a little) when I think that I was responsible for maybe giving him lung cancer in the distant future. There are so many things that are coming into focus regarding my affair with smoking. I much prefer dragging drawing puckering puffing and sucking h****** a long cork filter full flavor 100 cigarette. In 15 minutes?" If you do not receive your email shortly, please check your spam folder. I studied Nursing and spent time on a cancer ward and saw the horrific ways in which people died slowly and painfully from smoking relatedcancers. I tried B&H before but looking at the all white cigarette just didn't work for me. I have always been fascinated by nature. We were on the highway one afternoon and I had my hand on her thigh, and she put her hand on my hand, lightly digging in. Fortunately, you lowered your life expectancy and will probably die of cancer, all for some douchebag. Could you describe us the first time you felt like you "needed" a cigarette? What do you have to get used to? though which is good. Terry Martin quit smoking after 26 years and is now an advocate for those seeking freedom from nicotine addiction. Reddit and its partners use cookies and similar technologies to provide you with a better experience. Wow! For more information, please see our "I love smoking cigarettes. Most women will do anything to please their men. It started when I was a little girl of 9 yo. I felt very proud that I was sitting with my granny smoking my own cigaret. I noticed that, slowly, as time went on, I was pouring more and more drinks at home - one weak drink for me that I would sip on all night and one or more strong drinks for him. I ask " What is the surprise, Anabelle?" My mom smoked Salem slim 100 at the time I finally decided i wanted to try one . My story is about the same. Heaven. My mom, sister, and I moved to the east coast from California, and I started smoking a couple of months after that. I realize now that my reasons for smoking at that age have twisted themselves into reasons why I was still smoking 16 years later. I haven't stopped crying since walking out on him and keep feeling like I have made a big mistake, but my opinion will not change, I do not want him to smoke. I love having a fresh lit cigarette hanging out of my mouth. I too am so adicted to way i smoke very proud of my smoking needs attentive the way i watch other women smoke it just turns me on so much cant help myself erom smoking 2to3 packs a day and trying to smoke a carton ps do i qualify as to be a smoker love from a smoker smoke em babyyyyyyyyyyyy smoke them beyond the filter dont ever exhail, Thats honest smoking im opening to feel sexy im addicted. If you are in need of help please contact people who care and please remember suicide is never the answer. My mom was a very sexy woman .and I can remember watching her. We did this a couple of times and enjoyed it. I want to be free of the hold smoking has over me. I was so blind to my manipulations and scheming. That weekend, boom. I worry that she will want to smoke more. I started out with one a day, then it went to 2 and now 4-5 a day, I love smoking so much. I chain smoke Winfield reds at every opportunity. I can totally understand . She wears leather gloves, boots, lingerie Outside of our adventures ahe rarely smokes Did smoking change your personality by making you more confident or more sexy? I never saw it the way I just described it until the last few weeks. So, before I'd go in the house, I'd go to the garden (if I wasn't already there) and pick rosemary, basil, or any pungent herb. It is as if my entire life was deliberately built around cigarettes. I would feel relieved when my husband and son would go on an outing without me (at my insistence), just so I could smoke "in peace". If I think about that too much, I have to smoke more to calm down. We really clicked and started dating. 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) - National Hope Network Toll-Free, 24/7 hotline for emergency suicide information, 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) - National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 24/7 free and confidential support for people in distress, 1-866-488-7386 - The Trevor HelpLine - Specializing in LGBTQ youth suicide prevention & help, Child Helpline International - International Child Helpline Network, RAINN - International Sexual Assault Helplines, Mental Health Europe - Helplines for Young People, Ted Bundy's Warning About Pornography - YouTube Video. My girlfriend smokes about 30 cigarettes a day and although I'm not a smoker, I love the smell of the smoke on her hair and her clothes and her breath - it's a real turn on. He fantasizes about me smoking all day, every day. And thus the circle goes around and around. There are videos on porn sites of it. I want to take the power of my addiction away by telling you the truth about me. Now I realize that my addict-self is selfish and is motivated only by cigarettes. I tried several different cigarettes, and the ones I liked the best were Camels. About a month later she texted me and said she was going to buy a pack. It happened so slowly and I see that my mind was playing all sorts of tricks on me. When I cough we smile and hug. I didn't write this. It felt so exciting and erotitic. This is the fifth day since I quit. My husband wasn't a smoker when we met. Right from those first few puffs, smoking has helped me cope with the ups and downs of life. Do you need to smoke more whenever you are working? I shook one out of the pack and lit up. Think : "I'm a sexy smoker". Today I'm not so sure. He is a bit of a fitness fanatic. How do you prepare? But I love it! My husband is a nonsmoker and when we met, I had quit for a little over one year after smoking for years. Anonymous confessions, stories and advice. From an early age I hated smoking, my Dad smoked and the house always smelt horrible and I could hardly breathe when I was at home, I was always very anti-smoking. But he said it was hot. It makes us feel guilty, weak, and stuck. How different is the taste of a cigarette from when you first started? It just feels awesome! Anonymous I said ok but if she wanted to smoke while we were on holiday i would be ok with it and, i promised, if she wanted to and did, then when we got back i would quit to with her. She'll eat at her desk so when lunch comes she can smoke the whole time puffing her head off to saturate her self in smoke and suck herself into a nicotine stupor that she loves to maintain. I've been to Vegas before and that's smoker's heaven, you can smoke everywhere, There's good and bad news! Meet Amanda B. Amanda started smoking in 5th grade, and by the time she was 13 years old, she smoked every day. I've even smoked 2 cigarettes at the same time so I can have one in my mouth and one in my hand at the same time. I was with a guy who liked smoking girls. And they weren't there. We are sitting at an outdoor bar drinking and she says "I finally got the hang of the smoking, wanna see ?". After we got married, I thought it would be nice if he could share smokes with me, so I started coaxing him to try it. I could see her from where I was working, she stood out in the cold before going into the office puffing away on a Marlboro Red full flavor cork filter 100 cigarette. Today is my fifth smoke-free day. I was really anti smoking before I started. My name is Karen, but my friends call me Kay. Tired of putting the things to your mouth. Language Matters: Is This a Drug Overdose or Drug Poisoning Crisis. obviously by then i knew my wife didn't want to quit as much as i didn't and, 15 years later, we're both still smokers. Utterly selfish and devoted to my addiction. I smoke maybe half of that but I do really enjoy it. -- and I just wanted one. After months of no success, he finally relented. Then eating my lunch in about 10 minutes. Once she gets to smoke she gets very excited and happy then she wraps her lips around that cigarette latches on sucks hard and once again enters the euphoric state of pumping herself full of thick rich cigarette smoke where everything smooths out and once again everything is just right. we both enjoy it and really like the quiet times when we smoke together. I have faked headaches so I could stay home from outings that would hinder my ability to smoke at least every hour. I smoke about a pack a day now. I'm a pack to a pack and half a day smoker my wife, being around a pack a day smoker before quitting, is a 2 pack per day smoker now and has, and she's said as much, no intention of quitting ever again.music to my ears Add comment as: about smoking. Member-only. Hi I have stopped smoking 100 days ago and I have to say I regret it, I love smoking, but lets start at the beginning how I became a smoker.I started relativly late 8 years ago when I was 30. At just 24 years old, Bella Thorne is hoping to dominate the marijuana industry. Listed here you will locate several of the most popular electronic cigarette companies around the world. Was it because of your boyfriend? Im a radical vegan and Ive started eating bugs in order to protect the environment (theyre full of protein). My granny is a sexy woman of 53 yo. My gf got me start. Everything is just right for her when she's having a cigarette. However, this is simply preposterous because stupidity doesn't choose a gender and women love playing with their health as much as men do. Enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email. It was super awkward, but he told me all the details of it, then apologized and said "don't smoke" He never brought it up again, but I started to notice things he did (and checked his browser history). He doesn't know how I wish I could take back every moment that I smoked, just to spend that time with him because I miss him so much. One of my ex boyfriends played a joke on me one night, it was playful, but still, he hid my cigarettes and, I'm half French. And now I am 27 and I still smoke 120s and still have the same feeling. I realize now that my reasons for smoking at that age have twisted themselves into reasons why I was still smoking 16 years later.